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Usually when something upsetting happens, I used to write in my diary.

To emphasize certain details, I will add up cartoons here and there.

But then the whole writing thing becomes really inconvenient..

Maybe because there are too many negative moments, thus too much writing to do.

So yeah, this is one of the times where blogging is the new writing. 

So anyway,

As the title itself shows, I was pretty much feeling down today.

It's not my hobby to feel negative, incase anyone feels like I'm emo nemo all time.

There must be something, or someone.

Just recently decided to take up this degree course I initially rejected.

Reasons are simple. 

cheaper fees, shorter duration, syllabus generally wide, and I can already work after completing this.

Unlike pharmacy degree that needs 6 years, a bomb kind of fees, competition due to overpopulation and also restriction of the professional roles here, I think this one I'm looking at (Biomed) is alot wiser.

Like I have explained to so many adults, but somehow they never registered my reasons, 

My ultimate aim is to study a science degree close to medicine field, get a job then plan from there onwards.

It looks very mainstream, but people need to know, graduating is one thing, being successful is another. But one step at a time, I need to get my ticket before boarding right.

Was planning to register myself today.

Called up the institution, asked about the details.

It turns out that there are open day activities next week, which means direct advices from the subject lecturers. I wouldn't want to miss that, so next week it is.

Skipped down the stairs happily to tell the 2 adults about my little independent achievemt.

Dad looked at me with that look that says I-think-you-are-not-doing-the-right-thing

" are you sure you don't wanna go sunway?"

" sunway offers biotech, I'm aiming biomedical"

" are you sure..?"

" yes..? Why?!"

" well cause both of these needs great patience since its about lab work"

" I know.. "

" and you're not that kind of person... "

" oh.. But I don't have a choice already "

" what do you mean, you can still choose"

" look dad, I just want to graduate with a science degree. That's all "

So yeah conversation was as such.

I sound like a stubborn gorilla, but I really was offended by how he doubts his daughter.

I know he's trying to change my mind, since I mentioned that biology was my worst subject to learn and lab works are boring.

But I came to the stage where I realize that if I want to graduate and work fast, I have to start studying asap: and I have to like what I don't, that's the only way to help me get what I want.

Yes I'm interested in OB/GYN, but I'm not fully dumb, I know that medicine is no joke and if I enter, I would be the joke!

Anyhow, i felt really depressed.

I know I'm taking a very risky and unlikely path, but mental support would be awesome

Doubting my decisions are just... Like stabbing me slowly

Ugh whatever:

To top it off. 

Dad and I was on my driving practice again, I hated the instructor because he said that I cannot pass the test even with 10 trials. 

Wth?! Plus. Dad says I should have learned auto car.

Omg, what is wrong with him. Can'the give me the support I need? ):

I can handle a manual car too, just wait patiently .ughhhh

Frustrated to the max. Till then!

Ps, sending a friend to Australia later.

I wonder how it feels like. I hope there will be minimum tears all together (: