Scumbag

I decided to write this cause I just remembered something I heard from a friend.
And I felt very betrayed and upset.
Well it doesn't directly involve me, but yeah, I can somehow relate to the story.

So I had this crush back then.
He was nice, sweet, yet distant. But I dared not wish for more...
He would occasionally talk to me or even have physical contacts like a pat on my hand..
Hey that was enough to send me smiling the whole week.

He got himself a girlfriend. A pretty one indeed. She looks nice, so I'm somehow happy for him.
But then recently I found out a truth about him.
It turns out he dated my friend before, and acted like a complete douchebag, hence breaking my friend's heart. It was a low profile relationship, which explains why I was so shocked hearing this.
Then now that he has a girlfriend, his good friend B, got interested in my female friend, who used to be my crush's ex.
B actually asked advices from him, considering he once coupled with my friend.
Hence they got together, but then recently had problems.
How bad is that? I don't know... That girl friend is always keeping things to herself.. So let it be.

What I'm upset about is how my crush, or used-to-be-crush, handled this matter.
First, he courted my friend, broke up, then brought his new girlfriend to show his new found love.
Really??? As low profile as their past relationship was, he should be considerate about my friend!
Considering that they both meet up quite often, he shouldn't just ignore my friend and go all lovey dovey with his new girl. That's just mean!!!!
Second, this B dude got my friend's sympathy and then earned himself a girlfriend thanks to him?
I don't know about anyone else, but I personally think how B got advices from the girl's ex is just inappropriate. It's like saying " hey I'm interested in what you were interested in, can you tell me how to get her ? "  NASTY SCUMBAG.

Okay, maybe what I heard wasn't 100% proven or confirmed,
But I'm glad that I get to know possible sides of my crush.

I used to think he's different, considering how he would approach me and everything he did seemed pleasant and I had to control my nerves so I don't blush like a mad pig.

Oh, plus, since we don't see each other that often already, he had been acting like he didn't know me at all. He totally ignored me ! Hello? What did I do?  Stole your car?

Ughhh whatever, nobody's perfect.
Looking back at my diary, I used to be so close to him.
We don't talk like buddies. But his smile and gestures made me smile.

old times ...

Failed

Had my driving test today.

Can we just spend a moment to meditate before I stab myself mentally on how stupid I was ..?

Apparently I didn't make it.
Didn't manage to drive my car over the hump of the slope test. IT WAS SO CLOSE.
To be honest, I was a tad bit more confident in this compared to side parking and 3 point turn.
I tried like 5-6 times of slope test and I have no problem doing that..
Well not till today -.-
All went well till I was asked to overcome that ONE hump. The moment I let loose of the handbrake..
There goes my car rolling down. Sigh. Disappointed of myself.
To think that parking is worse, I don't know if I can make it for the next time oh boy ):

Nonetheless, I took the other exam, testing on the road skills.
Have to admit, my mum paid extra to get me an easy pass. Sigh, hopeless me.
Well, truth to be told, I passed.
But I'm not proud of it, since I'm pretty sure a strict inspector would fail me in my first few minutes.
I'm not proud. But I'm happy. Hey I passed. Goodness YAY.
Wow I just have to write here about my experience. The beauty of bribery.
I made friends with this 18 years old girl. She didn't bribe for all sections.
And since her turn is way before mine. I get to hear her experience.
It turns out that she just barely continued her path after turning left, when the inspector announced her failure. Reason being her tyres sort of crossover the line marks on the road.
I mean, that's just freaking ridiculous. She's not even that bad and she failed cause her tyres are not perfectly in that tar-covered road. Argh. So pitiful ):
Then it was my turn. Calmed myself as much as possible so I won't fail like that slope test.
Wow, my inspector sure was difference from hers! He was not entirely friendly, but he's nice.
I mean... I can barely remember the path! Plus he practically does all the brakes and instruction-giving job. Oh not to mention, I had so many times where I almost overshoot a certain junction.
Yet, I passed.
I was shocked myself. I don't really know what to feel...
Ashamed ? Well saying no is a big fat lie.
But besides that, I just took a while to absorb the shock how I can still pass with skills like .
Hahah whatever, now I have to retake my slope test and the other 2. Argh.

Mum was encouraging. I think she's afraid that I would cut my wrist or smth.
But no, I'm scared of pain haha.
Dad was moderate. " what happened?? " he asked.
Well honestly I don't know how to answer that nor do I know where to start?
So I just went by saying I don't know why but I just rolled down.

Oh well. Obviously they're disappointed of me.
I am too.. Sigh such an expensive license ):
Idk why my parents would spend so much on to help me pass.. It's almost 1000 bucks!
How long do I need to work to repay their effort.
Such a troublesome daughter hahahaha.

I really the second time will end up as a beautiful blogpost.

Goodnight!!

Contented

Its march already!

The month that I will start my uni life very soon.

There are some regrets actually.

Well before this, my mind was set on later intakes.. Like maybe August or sept..

But then plans changed.

So I'm entering a march intake course. So time isn't on my side anymore.

Since initially I had so many more months to spare, I was leisurely planning on things to do.

Part time jobs, that's for sure.

I always wanted to work in a bakery. Pastries and decorating cakes. Haha.

Oh please, those are for trained ones. Me? Probably the one cleaning or packing breads.

Oh boo. 

Salesperson? I wouldn't mind, but true, I don't really want to get involved in that area.

Plus, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be a good employee. Shyness. Oh boo.

A friend told me once about this volunteering/training position at sunway hospital.

That's one of my dream places to work. Hahah.

That was when I was determined to be an obstetrician. 

Walking from room to room, checking my patients' womb condition, ticking schedules.

Oh such a beautiful dream. Yes dream, cause I won't be that ):

So since then I am very interested to find a job like that.

I didn't make my move the past few months cause well, I had a lot of time back then.

But looking at the date now, it's less than a month till I am stuck with books.

Did my enquiry to clinics opposite my place.

Nope, all rejected my whole part-time-student questions.

Oh well. My bad. Should have got myself a job after cny,,

Hey, I have a solid reason.

My driving lessons have been delayed like mad gorillas.

Well according to that uncle, he's very damn busy with a lot more students.

So yeah. I had very awkward lessons scheduled. Some 2 weeks apart.

Can any beginner remember all the clutch-brake thing after that long? Certainly not me!

Hence I didn't bother asking for vacancies.

What if there is an opportunity, I can't grab it either.

My uncle likes to call me up at night around 10pm, just ton inform me of the lesson the next morning.

Wow, if I'm an employee, how could I explain that to my employer?

Explaining to my uncle? I tried objecting his scheduled and earned myself a deafening complain from him that claims that it's my entirely my fault because I can't cooperate in this whole lesson thing.

Oh don't you just feel like shaving his hair bald and cracking his elbow...?

Had to suppress every nerve in my system to hold back my boiling anger.

Skip that.

Had 2 rounds of practice with dad today.

I'm still upset of how he's so inconsiderate of me.

But I have to brush up my skills. I suck in this. And I'm taking the test on Tuesday,

OMG if I do pass, I'll buy my girls Ice cream. 

Started off roughly. Dad shouted and sighed,

But an optimistic side of me took over today, and things got better.

Not exactly great, but hey I'm getting there.. Close..?

Asked advices from friends who passed.

Sigh, those made me even more worried. But it's nice to get good-luck wishes (:

Speaking about them..

Some of them are probably having fun in a club now :D

They looked amazing from the photos. All dolled up and ready to get guys drooling over them.

Some people are just born with a great look and body with the right curves.

Well too bad, I'm not one of them. Oh well! Hahaha I can live with that I guess :D

So overall. Today I feel contented..? 

Sort of made up with sis today.. We hadn't be talking to each other well for almost a week.

I chose to ignore her clothes purposely while folding because she made a wrong step first. She didn't do her part of the chore. It was a punishment.

It worked better than me screaming and getting unfair treatment from dad.

Now, she does her parts (: I hope it lasts long. 

Plus, she got me something from her field trip today. Was told that it's my belated bday present.
Totally flabbergasted. We barely talked in the past few days.
It costed 20 bucks tho. I guess I'll have to hunt her bday present soon too.
Which reminds me, her birthday is on the 17th of March. Is this sort of like her trick to get me buying her a gift..?
I'll just go with the whole sweet and caring reason. Hehe (:

That's all. goodnight!
And I really hope I pass my driving test. Seriously. It'll be a testimony again.
God did lots of miracles in my life. Hopefully this will be one?
But it's okay Lord, I shall just put my faith in your plans (: